which was more than i’m used to
which made me feel bad
as my dinner was a pre-packaged salad
the veggies i was ok with but it had pasta and chicken and bacon and this mayo dressing
and i sort of cracked
i purged it, well as much of it as i could
it was 325kls
i have no idea how much of it went but i feel better for it
so my intake is probably 150-200kls lower now
urgh
what is my life
Oats with peanutbutter and banana: 190kls
Graze box: 103kls
Couscous: 178kls
Salsa: 30kls
Hummus: 50kls
Red pepper: 20kls
Total: 571kls
So many and i haven’t exercised
might go for a walk in a bit - my whole body aches still :/
(also this salsa is hurting my teeth :/ it’s so spicy! but i need a metabolism boost!)
Yesterday I also had a bit of a cry about how scared I am to get back to my highest weight. Every time I think about how there’s only a few kilos left I get so ashamed of myself.
Thing is: I don’t feel half as bad as I used to when I look in the mirror.
So I compared pictures.
I guess 1.5 years of vigorous exercise does something to your body, regardless of your weight.
So i bought my own set of scales
and the stupid twat who just delivered it
gah
my mum answered the door and it wasn’t wrapped so she saw what it was
and was ll why did you buy that
fuck sake
because i want one for my bathroom
fucked off
At 5 i’m going on the cross trainer and then at 7 i’ll do the 100kls exercise
100 calories exercise
60 leg lifts each side
60 bum lifts
60 marching
30 heat wave
60 bicyle
30 lower ab toner
60 sit ups
100 arm sqeezes
20 minutes cross trainer
my future legs
(via idkwhatittakes)
I ate some chocolate and some fruit pastilles
i wanted to weight myself tomorrow D:
but i don’t want to see it go up
took 6 laxatives
hope my new scales arrive tomorrow
tomorrow i’m having carrots and hummus to eat
and an apple or two
and something from my graze box
that is it
